Chinchilla

come home snoopy come home

Sun, 27 Jul 2003 09:29:39 GMT

met ben lee today-- if this was 4 years ago, i could have died... he was with jason schwartzman, so it was like 2 icons from 9th grade! saw dj z trip and dance the fuck out of his set with nikki and saw fuckin blonde redhead!!!!!!!! went to moca with nikki 1, nikki 2, erika, jorge, diana, david, and kate- damn funnyman phil for bailing... saw flaming lips videos - A MAZING oh and i was totally moody all day- which is always funny! then coming back home to meet 2 random japanese boys just came here with out one word of english! and a bunch of crusties in my suite... someone was anti-semetic... pissed the fuck out of me.... god how can someone be all up in my face about beig vegan and socially conscious without the fucking empathy - where is the love...

allie, i'm worried about you baby... call me.. jew bagels are good, being emactiated isn't... herion sheek is passe... swear to god... but you can sweat into the oldies anyday...awww cancer sticks here i come..... i'm learning to breakdance again !!!!! but this time 4real.... and good news- ecuador spring and japan summer... oh i miss my prison boys my babies, i miss my garden- i hate weekends, i wanna go to work

Tue, 01 Jul 2003 06:46:49 GMT

just a shout out to everyone who came bye on saturday (esp tiff and atariel and brendan for the shlpes and j-sex for always causin trouble)- thanks and fuck you for allow the torturous stripper- i've decided the worse way to die is by having to deal with that stripper for infinity! went to the detention center and all the deliquent boys think i'm a slut cuz i have fucking hickies all up on my neck... can't fucking sell a macy's charge card for the life of me neither.... fucking cccsi at pitzer wants to fire me- fuck them i fucking work a bunch- grrrrrrr
beyond that- i'm strictly in love with my suitemates and jose is the best singer of it's gettin hot in here karoke stlye... oh yeah and a like 74 year old man tried to freak me to jose singing that at margherita monday's tonight!!! in the words of charlie brown "urgh"

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 18:41:26 GMT

dont have a computer, so i guess i havent been on in a long while... kife if full of drugs and booze, wishing more for the sex and rock n roll
i work at a motherfucking prison!
i went to court to fight a ticket today and the cop didnt show up, i got so excited i got fake nails, sooo ghetto fabulous

Fri, 23 May 2003 07:55:26 GMT

i am sorry .. i am the drunk one and nothing i said in the last entry made sense... oh shit.. i'm at home and its bedtime

drunk boys- ex fiances and hot girls i'm too shy to hit on

Fri, 23 May 2003 07:53:13 GMT

drunk josh is trying to convince me thats he's the perfect guy for me
i'm just a super jewish looking boring girl who really doesnt give a shit about anything...excpect being an asexual heartbreaker!
i hope i go to arizone to see lauryn.. i met one of allies corona boys, he said he was down for the ride with me--- how kerouac would that be... me and a stranger and the open road.. stranger is friends with travis (argh, no boys who spray paint swastikas please)
had the most incredible day spend being the third wheel and trinity broadcasting network- fuck we were praying to jesus so who the fuck cares, i mean he is the man i love
i stole postcards from the tbn incense, as if being jewish wasnt bad enough-- i am totally going to hell
bought my dad clothes, its just like dressin up a kid for church in their sundays best- sooooooooooooo gooooooooooooood
i hope phil and i see built to spill tommorrow night
allies party is going to be the shit on saturday
gettin a haircut tommorrow a la susan powder
and all i can say to : oy gavalt joey ... and he tried to kiss me.. but i've been listening to a lot of salt n peppa

i spend my days riding around the loop and my nights with frat boys

Tue, 20 May 2003 06:49:40 GMT

honestly.. that is my life right now
hahaha
grrrrrrrrrrr
waaaaaaaaaaahhh
hmmmmmmmmmmm
yeah, i did chores all day.. drove isaac to school, took him and his friend to lunch, picked him up, helped him study for an english test- i wanna be an awesome big sis.. too bad my lackluster attitude through it all was not masked very well.. grrr, i hate how quite i've gotten
anyway, wrote letters today, got my bike fixed, and rocked n rolled-- (megan gave it too me, so i mailed her a bike bell for her new bike, gosh i'm missin her!)
ran around with prince (yes jess, fine- its true- he's the ugliest dog ever)
dreamed of living life with a hook arm and a tail
still hoping to oneday become a dentist
found my passport (so i'm gonna hopefully go to israel for a couple weeks in august! represtenting- terrorists aint got nothing on me)
tommorrow- hot date with claremont - hopefully getting a job... hopefully getting a job as a crossing guard, jesus j christ i'd wet myself if i got a job as a crossing guard for 3 substantial reasons 1) getta rock the reflective gear, 2) play with the kiddies and 3) getta blow a whistle... wow that'd be the best way EVER to spend summer
oh and jess, too bad you're still gonna owe me twenty bucks in 2018!

maybe if i super glue a beret to my head, i'll get a job

Mon, 19 May 2003 05:22:08 GMT

two graduations in one day: i love watching people shake people's hands and give them important pieces of paper... now thats liberation!
new goal in life: not to burn off large chunks of blackened flesh
second goals in life: try and fail at keeping a journal but instead devote the rest of my life to writing a memior, living in the retrospect like i'm dying-- no, bad goal, scratch that

Fri, 16 May 2003 03:32:02 GMT

i've learned the hardway.. taking six classes ruins your social life, gives you ulcers, makes you seem like a scary monster, makes you cry a lot, and lowers your gpa... i need to shoot myself in the face twenty times in a row
fuckin shit, i feel pregant, my fucking medicine makes me all hungry and moody, unless i am pregant,whoa so not funny... fuck now i;m being paranoid
my cousin had a baby yesterday- whoo hoo... arthis has a ktten whoo hoo... jane and djuno have 3 featherless birds in a nest in their porch- what can i say.. it is spring
i need another job- i owe dad 300 bucks and all i wanna do is buy food with that money.. fuck i have so much to do... stupid me, needing to shoot myself inthe face..i gruelled through 3 finals today TODAY hahaha
my dad left me a message that ended "i love ya kid" jesus chirst that made me tear up, oh why is he the best dad ever now, i guess we're finally appreciating eachother, its the best feeling ever
fuck, crazys light is flickering, its spooky
patrick spent the night last night, it was cute, i miss cuddling soo much, but then the alarm clock went off and we fumbled around and departed, i never gotta say bye to him, damn, oh well, guess that calls for a trip to portland! goddamn, hes to nice... jess you're rubbin off FUCK and I AM ASEXUAL
what i need is a beard or at least a lil ear hair- that'd make me laugh.
argh... tommorrow is go pay a thousand dollars of tickets and move a bunch of shit day! i wanna die, fuck and i want my tonsils out- god do i ask for too much!
oh and i realized that out of THE WHOLE SUMMER, i will not be at pitzer for only 2 weeks
oh, on a good note, phil and i are seeing buildt to spill next weekend, which is just another excuse to kidnap the most awesomest funnyman phil ever in santa barbara and run a muck mwahaha

shake up my mind like an etch a sketch

Wed, 14 May 2003 06:12:16 GMT

so, i missed a final in us history today on account of a fever. my dad spent the night last night, he tried to help me study but i kept passing out. he rocks the house, i'm glad we're on better terms and hes doing all the awesome dad stuff i want him to do for me... he even mentioned getting me beck tix since he's playing on my birthday!!!!
sad- patrick is leaving thrusday afternoon, so i wont see him till the fall, which is a bummer, i'm gonna miss that kid. I feel guilty that hes leaving pitzer for the summer thinking im the drunk slut i am. goddammit!
sad that jess and i wont be roomates anymore- i hope we can be suitemates! i love the j-sex... argh- i'm overly emotional right now
stupid drugs
makin me cry about lame tlc shows and dr phil
moooooooooooo

Tue, 13 May 2003 03:00:41 GMT

wanna see the grossest thing ever- look down my throat

Tue, 13 May 2003 02:48:21 GMT

wow, my dad is so nice. I warned him that I live in filth, he said its okay. He's driving up to see me, make sure I'm feeling ok, and help quiz me on my finals. god, its so sweet I wanna cry...

Sun, 11 May 2003 18:58:29 GMT

sog

cheerleading

Sun, 11 May 2003 18:45:40 GMT

camping in the Marquis Library was one of the best ideas I have ever had (well, it wasnt my idea,but I did it and it was wonderful). Crazy and I busted out the camping gear: tents, sleepin bags, bug repellant, and Tiff and Richard busted out the scary stories! In the library we heard the fireflies and crickets, it made me happy.

PS_ when I get drunk, oh god, sorry for being drunk.. no more thrillaz parties- i die

Fri, 09 May 2003 11:47:31 GMT

GOALS FOR THE WEEKEND
SLEEP!
WALK
STRETCH
EXERCISE
GET A SUMMER JOB
SPEND TIME WITH THE FAM
STUDY OB (WITH JAN), PREPARE AMERICAN HISTORY ESSAYS, READ AMERICAN HISTORY, DO CHAPERS 8-11 IN STATS, DO STATS FINAL, FINISH STATS TERM PAPER
GET LIANNE A THANK YOU GIFT
THANK MY PROFS
EDIT OLD PAPERS
CORRECT STATS HOMEWORK
SLEEEEP

i'm gonna shoot myself in the face- all the time

Fri, 09 May 2003 09:44:59 GMT

SO MY FUCKING STATS FINAL - where'd it go, oh yeah- the computer destroys things- it is dead. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKK
i hate my life i hate it so much
i quit
i want a present

dayglow

Wed, 07 May 2003 08:13:37 GMT

its relaxing to read other ppls journals and know that the world isnt exploding everywhere, just in my minds eye
i am an exploding cow
i wish i could just sit in my parents car and try to remember all the people they have picked up hitchiking through their lives
i wish i could find an excellent local 24 hour vegetarian burrito stand
i wish i could explain my views on the miscommunication and the dichotomoty of what was said vs doneduring the vietnam war
i wish i could play sass patrol instead of write papers on failed dandies
i want to go to a toy store, please read, fly kites and go running
stupid fucking democracy is preventing me

argh- new goal in life: overthrow the talent heirarchy and make good burritos
no more ex boyfriends and no more computer screens

oh and jess thinks what separates us from animals is anal sex, i think it is consciousness, arthi thinks its avocados- you decide........

Tue, 06 May 2003 01:52:25 GMT

richard's going away party/ last thrillaz party DATE CHANGED to THIS FRIDAY.. sorry but I have two midterms due friday and I need to study Thursday night, and its my room - so there!

Thu, 01 May 2003 12:26:10 GMT

i bet the tables are turned... i bet tonight for the first time in a gagillion years, jessica will be sleeping soundly tucked away in a LA bed, while I fucking can't sleep... goddamn the ill effects of college

Wed, 30 Apr 2003 05:55:49 GMT

i fucking hate sketch maintence people who under the table and with nobody's permission paint the thrillas wall, charge us a shitload of money and do a crappy job
motherfucking drunk ungrateful shit, go back to painting benches and leave my suite be!

simply put i want to grow old dying does not meet my exceptations

Wed, 30 Apr 2003 00:15:20 GMT

I wish i were a dog, life would be so simple... oh how i dream i dreamt a canine's dream

haha, back to reality
Had a productive day, a good day, a go outside and change the world day. Becky and I went to House of Ruth, I solidified my internship, passed love letters to Barry Sanders, had girl talk with cmc toni (we're drinkin thurs night, haha.. me and cmc)
Went to class, lost a class.. wrote and slept and walked around a bit

in any event, school is winding down and I still feel like a psuedo-intellectual, i guess the learning process is slower for me.. robot robot

sniffing glue gummo style

Mon, 28 Apr 2003 20:21:45 GMT

fuck ,no more thrilla wall
up till 3 being stalked by an ex, watch out... apparently i ruined his life
all i know is he has my clothes and records, and 6 months later i'm still pissed because i'm never gonna find that beck/aphex twin record or that really sweet ravi shankur one
pissed i didnt go north with phil, pissed i didnt stay at school to visit other phil from sb, pissed i just went home and slept.. i was too tired to even appreciate isaac's cello music, pissed that prince needs to sleep with me everynight i'm home (enough codependents already!)

these days will be the death of me

Sun, 27 Apr 2003 08:07:35 GMT

today i was monstro-bitch mode cecilia... oh and for good reason
only morressey will get it, today was a morrissey day.. depressed self-absorbed depressed men- i just can't get enough of that shit

So last night, patrick and i got coffee and saw arthi and the autumns play the donnie darko party on the mounds. it was ccccccold, but quite fun. hung out with nice kids... after the autumns patrick darted to get a keg and preston and i took on the world. we rocked to that song "i'm falling even more in love with you" and flock of seaguls karaoke style at the black student union. we are so awesome, let me tell you, we sure as hell can't sing but we sure can shake our money makers, and at the end of the day, thats all that matters. we got the crowd going and these drunk scripps girl were all about the rock. the karake ended at 1 so then dana no joke picked me up and carried me out with the drunk scripps girls. one kissed me, so random! they were funny, drunk typical funny girls gone wild girls.
we all went to sanborn, they were drunk and rowdy and wandered off. i ended up in a nappy room, i was the only non- napy and they all talked nappy shit, i didn't get it and felt out of place, but was too lazy to leave. I was introduced to roling cigarettes with filters and wet noodles... those really fuck you up.. they are a bong rip, then a shot of jeiger, then a chug of beer, then an exhale
ended up tumbling to patrick who was saddened by a loss of a keg, i was spaced though and a lil cold- whoops. oh i hung out with future suite-mate rebecca, she's a riot!'
went and visited lisa with brandy, oh boy it was fun, but i was gonna die so i went to my room
and ate and ate and ate.. 2 protein bars, 2 bags of chips, 3 brownies and 2 cookies-- my poor arteries are gonna go on strike and i'm gonna have a heart attack one of these days. i stayed up for a while, cuz jess and bax were conversing and i wanted to talk to jess before i passed out.. so i stayed up till like 5 just looking at pitzer's of oscar wilde's love obession Lord Alfred Douglas (oh my he was precious to the eye).. jess never came back and i passed out in a heap of trash. (our room is a reflection of our lives, piles of shit and chaos! i love it)
woke up angrily at 10:30 because i missed the first half of this american life, and i hate missing that more than most things in life... megan and i did sass patrol stuff for a while.. i packed to go home (isaac had a concert today) and left before i could see phil, who i really wanted to say hi to because he's a fun kid.
passed out through the cello concert and got angry at everyone because i am in bitch-mode and ate a doughnut and crashed.. woke up pissed off at sleeping ... ate a bunch yelled, cuz i am once again in bitch mode.. went to the gypsy den for 4 hours.. had fun stopped being a bitch because i read and ran into a friend and met another. Eve and i want to road trip together, i'm excited! today was also a day of spillage, my mom spilt salad dressing on my white skirt and eve spilt coffee on my homework and books- i like spills, i don't reactt get amused.
stressed as all hell with the end of the year, i need to pass my classes! i'm hitching a ride to sf with mega the day after school gets out and from there i hope to spend a week in humboldt before my internship at the dentention center starts. fuck, i need money to get up there, poop
all i can say is sass patrol

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 09:46:49 GMT

i quit, let's watch gummo

my knees are exploding

Thu, 24 Apr 2003 18:17:50 GMT

tragedy strikes again: I decide I love running and want to train and be a runner (cuz its funny!) then my knees and hips start severely hurting. I was walking back from class just now and ate it cuz my knees are quitting. fuck this shit, i want new knees for my birthday!

Just watched Andy Kaufman and Gilda Radner, made my morning so fucking awesome... Gilda is so my hero... talked to Barry about writing a piece on my nutty life, jeeze though its so screwy dont know where to begin-- even the begining, the birthing process is far too complicated- shit yo

jess made me a cute shirt last night and it made my day this morning being woken up to "i made you something" goddammit I have the best people in my life, thanks jess for finally being my pal- i heart you "cancer stike baseball"

joey scared me last night, he called thank goodness i wansnt there.. it made me jump, argh why is he so crazy, just like Rasputin, but fuck I won't do the same thing Czar Nicholas did, I won't let Russia crumble goddamit

Tue, 22 Apr 2003 10:17:29 GMT

i'm getting really sad realizing that megan is really truly transferring to Evergreen in the fall gosh i'll miss her around here. i hung out with freshman funnies tonight, drank and watched chevy chase movies that were god awful but so damn good at the same time. had a grand ole time with patrick, shit i hope he didnt get me sick...
on another note, i have a fear of growing a tail and webbed feet and noticable multiple excess layers of skin and flesh... oh fears of mine
i have a fear of trumpets, spies, and gophers too